Under Fate's Blade: Quick Update
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Wow...since exactly yesterday at around 12 pm, i realized how messed up my life is. It depresses me.
Sorry i bet i sound really pathetic right now, how unlike me. I just found out yesterday that one of my close friends won't be attending my school next year, and she's not coming back. And also that my close friend from the school next door moved to BC, and she's not coming back. Now i stand in the middle of a school corridor with people walking around me. And i realize how alone i am. I have to say i might be being a bit selfish on this part saying that i have no one, because i know that there's a few nice people who i can converse with...but...They don't 100% understand the real me.
My mom tells me i can't switch schools. And that i should just try to make new friends at the school...that's imposable.
People at my school, are scared of me. Not all of them, but a lot of them. I tried to converse with them more then once, making friendly conversation. But they ignore me, I'm just a shadow.
I'm like a phantom i guess. I wear a mask, I've been wearing it for such a long time. And all i wish for in this cruel world, is for someone to come up to me and pull that mask off me, and even with my mask up, still tell me they love me.
Heh, oh well, i guess i could dream. Fate seems to...want me to spend all my life alone for some reason. It hurts a bit, like there's a giant hole in my chest, it's been empty for such a long time.
See, there a go being pathetic again. I guess I'll just have to suck it all in and put the best smile i can make on. I'll have to continue living this alone life but, if this is how my life is written so far, then i guess i should follow it. It sucks, even though i act all tough, i would have liked to at least....go to prom on my last year of high school.
But those are just dreams.
Devious Comments
i reallyreallyreally hope you feel better.
haha you could try to do what i do when i need to make friendss. complainn about ur teacherr to the person sitting next to you.
idk. it works for me :\ just trying to help.
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Your soul tastes like chicken
I eventually made new friends. Friends that actually came to events and invited me to do likewise, and included me in their conversations.
I'll always be here for ya, if you ever want to talk. Far away, but close enough, just like how your 'old' friends are.
Probably didn't help much, but yeah. We all go through this at some point.
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Feed me, for I am hungry.
You know what?
You should send me random crap.
Well not literally crap.
That would be quite rude.
But random stuff.
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Your soul tastes like chicken
:/
/hurt. But I know what you mean, I suppose. ;o
I still say you talk to your mum. I mean as a last resort.. do you want my mum to talk to her? xD Monica likes Mary... or so it would seem
How scary.
Doesn't it make you feel old?
I remember looking at middleschoolers and thinking they were scary..ahahaa.
Feel good. have fun at the cottage..without..internets...-twitch-
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"You can fool all the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time, but you cannot fool all the people all the time.... Unless it's a question of math, then you can fool all the people all of the time."
o.o
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Your soul tastes like chicken
Though I would not push towards the fact that you're "alone" cause parents dont give a shit.
They give a shit if you go to university, and can get a job, do well, so you can support them as elders.
Well some don't think that far ahead, but the point is there.
Push that other schools.. normal schools.. give marks much easier than ufa teachers, or that the format that ufa teaches in (full year vs semestered) isn't doing you any good, and that you think that you can do better at a semestered school. Maybe cue in about teachers not caring as much as in grade 9/10.
I mean if you don't want me to push this I'll stop, but if you care enough to make a stink about it (not like hissy-fit ish, but try and push the idea seriously) enough to put up a bit if a fight you might get some give.
And I remember you saying that your parents would laugh at you trying to be serious... Means they don't take you, or your opinion seriously. (of course this is framed loosing, I'm sure they care, but you should be able to lay down something you feel really strongly about and get at least positive feedback)
Then again, I have fair parents. Though these rules should work in general. Debates and manipulation (y)
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"You can fool all the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time, but you cannot fool all the people all the time.... Unless it's a question of math, then you can fool all the people all of the time."
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Your soul tastes like chicken
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"You can fool all the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time, but you cannot fool all the people all the time.... Unless it's a question of math, then you can fool all the people all of the time."
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Your soul tastes like chicken
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